It would have been no less than rape. Porn I was totally bowled over by the fact that I had told myself for years I was not a mean, violent asshole and now there I was experiencing the urge to do something intensely cruel, even though it would resolve nothing. Even though I held her gently and talked her relationship troubles over with her it was plain I was still second choice for a screw. And of course, I found it impossible to keep my thoughts platonic; every time I saw her the bumps on her chest reminded me how pretty she looked topless and I would get an erection thinking how utopian it had been for those precious weeks when I was allowed to suck on that little girl’s nipples and ram my hard on into her, my cum lacing her insides.
